Our House is a very, very fine house

We have taken a "Leave it to Beaver" looking house to, what I hope and believe, a Swedish farmhouse sensibility.

I love lots of clean, open space and the soft gray's and blues are very calming.

I practically got my MBA on floors and how to refinish them.  We ended up liming the wood and waxing over it.  Turned out really pretty and light, but w/o the '80's feel.

Each furnitre piece is spotlighted as there aren't many, which represents both pressure and a need for great patience to find exactly the right item.

I am fairly obsessed with original, premium condition when we use vintage, as in the small Saarinen side table in the living room which is paired back with a bench from France circa early 1900's (World Interiors was my inspiration, I actually copied it, literally).

The kitchen/(real) living room has two rather large scale sofas, that are very architectural and angular; very deep with high back and sides, which are, of course, covered in white linen slipcovers.

The kitchen table was brought in from Paris, and it is 118" long with a stone top from the '50s (it took eight movers to put it in place, seriously) with a repurposed wood base, supposedly from the late 1800's (a la Axel Vervoordt, who j'adore!).

My current pursuits involve:

barstools - so hard to find - have looked at Bertoia, but so uncomfortable, this is a tough one

entrance chandelier - have two turn of the century Swedish mentality chandeliers in the dining and breakfast rooms, so am a bit stumped on this one

dining room table - need round and thought that I would do a vintage Saarinen, 60", white marble, but this has been almost impossible to source, my backup is an organic, in feel, wood table that is very old or from repurposed wood.  I have also looked at Lucca NYC, but really have a hard time buying anything new

Any ideas? 

Putting One Foot in Front of the Other

I can't remember how many times I have used this term with family and friends when they're starting new businesses or just facing life challenges.  

Now, I must follow my own advice and confront my perfectionism and just put myself out there.

I have accomplished a lot in my life, so far.  Many say that my talents cover such breadth, they're not sure what to recommend when I lament that I want to get back into the"zone", but not sure what I want to commit myself to.  

It's kind of like crack cocaine, from what I hear, you just keep returning to try and replicate the high of the first high.

That's how it's been for me, after the sale of my first company, I haven't been able to recreate the flow, the high of that first experience.

I have so many areas of interest and I am working to hone it down to what I want to focus on.  I mean, this is it, and I want to make it count.  I want to LOVE what I do.

Organic, even the word, expands me, it's ridiculous what a trip to WFs does for me.

Design, in particular interiors, is a real love, pretty much an obesession.

I'm doing the alone thing, w/o music, obviously w/o tv, to try and hear the"voice" within.

Whatever.

I can't decide if I should just dive in to one of the categories or just HOLD.

Any ideas?